You underestimate me

You may think I'm not that bright, or that I need a new plan, but let me assure you this is not the case.

See, there are different situations a woman can be in when it comes to relationships. There are relationships that were never good from the start, they were damaging to both people from day one. For whatever reason neither party did a damn thing about it, and even if you didn't see it from day one you eventually did and still continued to ignore it.

Then there are those relationships that GO bad, they are not "born" bad but they turn bad. Something changes at your at each other throats, you do things you wouldn't want the other person to know about and you do things which are harmful to your partner. I DON'T BELIEVE THAT THIS IS A ONE SIDED THING. Yes, that's right, I said it. Your husband cheated on you? Fine, he did it and it was wrong but what have YOU done to him? It's called Karma, my friend, and I'm a true believer.

I believe that relationships that GO bad can be fixed. It may not be easy, it may not be fun and it may be downright painful. I believe that the person walks away from this, the good relationship gone bad, is the coward and the stupid one. The one who needs a new plan.

If you can take an honest look at your relationship and, setting aside all hate and resentment, tell yourself that it WAS something good then you owe it to yourself to at least try to make it better.

After all, these are the moments that shape us. These are the life decisions that make us who we are. Are you going to run away just because things got a little tough? Or are you going to tackle it head on and give it everything you have, because damnit, you deserve happiness too!

I, for one, will not lay down and die. I will keep fighting for what I once had and what I could have. I am not a coward and I HAVE a plan. I will no longer contribute to the demise of my marriage, rather, I will help build it up and make it the wonderful union it once was.

If in the end I lose the battle, then so be it. At least I can say I fought, for myself and for my children, and am a better person because of it.