When it rains, it pours

Sigh... Despite all that has been going well, I'm dealing with my fair share of crap.

First soon to be ex-husband (we'll call him "jackass" for the purpose of this blog) lost his job on purpose in hopes of paying less child support. As a result, I am losing my house, (which doesn't totally break my heart because the taxes were going to to up anyway and I just couldn't see paying $1800 a month for 2 bedrooms and 1100 square feet.) It doesn't look like Jackass will find a job anytime soon and he acts like I have 3 heads when I tell him he needs to find some money somewhere to help with groceries and daycare. This is the same Jackass who threatened leaving the country to avoid paying child support.

If that wasn't enough, my mom went to the hospital on Friday with a blood clot in her leg. She is back home now but thank god they found it before it became disastrous. She can't walk and is on blood thinners for now. There was no reason for her to get a clot at all and she is only 45. I don't think I have ever been so scared in my life.

Then I miscarried. Yup, I was a week and a half late. I knew I was pregnant but knew something was wrong. Friday (the day my mom went to the hospital) I got a faint positive and today I lost it. I feel so lost. I don't really have anyone to talk to, I'm not telling my parents because they don't need more crap on their plate. Sigh... being a single mom sucks!