You know how when try to organize a room, it always seems to get messier before it starts looking cleaner? Well, that is the story of my life.
I am cleaning house. Saying goodbye to a husband who has been hell bent on making life miserable for me and trying desperately to start over as as single mother of two very young children. It's hard I tell you, really fucking hard.
I'm setting my appointment to file the papers. Just waiting for a call back. It's going to get uglier before it gets nicer. Wish me luck...
On a happier note...
Michael Buble' released his latest CD on the 1st of May and let me be the first to tell you IT.IS. AMAZING! Even in these very dark times in my life I can put on this CD and instantly I feel better. I even have moments of being the crazy lady dancing around and rocking out in her car. I am completely off my rocker if I insist that chocolate and swing music are what is getting me through?
This is the first single off the album. Not my favorite song, but good none the less.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
I *Heart* Jersey
No, not the State. The material.
Recently I am obsessed with Jersey Dresses, and for good reason.
I have come to the conclusion that there is nothing more comfortable than Jersey. Except maybe being naked but after 2 kids I just can't get away with that anymore. ;) (Now that I have put that frightening image in your head...)
Comfortable it is and practical too. Unless you crumple it in a ball and let it sit in the heat for days it really doesn't wrinkle. It drapes nicely, and while a size too small can cling, it is very flattering. Since I'm still loosing baby weight and not investing a lot in clothing I've been getting my Jersey from places like Target and Old Navy. Should you want to put some cash down on some wonderfully figure flattering and good quality Jersey, Rachel Pally is the way to go.
I've picked these up from Old Navy recently and I love them!
Recently I am obsessed with Jersey Dresses, and for good reason.
I have come to the conclusion that there is nothing more comfortable than Jersey. Except maybe being naked but after 2 kids I just can't get away with that anymore. ;) (Now that I have put that frightening image in your head...)
Comfortable it is and practical too. Unless you crumple it in a ball and let it sit in the heat for days it really doesn't wrinkle. It drapes nicely, and while a size too small can cling, it is very flattering. Since I'm still loosing baby weight and not investing a lot in clothing I've been getting my Jersey from places like Target and Old Navy. Should you want to put some cash down on some wonderfully figure flattering and good quality Jersey, Rachel Pally is the way to go.
I've picked these up from Old Navy recently and I love them!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Somewhere Over The Rainbow...
Here are pics of last nights event. I did a very last minutes rendition of "Somewhere Over The Rainbow." I was also the event planner for this event and it came off quite well. The group is Artists In Action International. You can visit us at www.artistsinactionint.org.
I am so happy to finally be coming up for air after this, event planning is quite a task. Especially when you are also a single mom and have a full time job!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Letters to the editor, newsday.com
More mental health services, and even involuntary mental health screenings, have been proposed to prevent repetition of the Virginia Tech massacre. But the mass murderer did get mental health care in a hospital.
He then rejected further treatment. The drug-only treatment he got may well have aggravated his disturbance.
Good mental health care is based on continuing, caring human contact: knowledgable people helping troubled people with problems, while strengthening and reassuring them. Medication, often with little or no meaningful human contact, has now almost entirely replaced that older care pattern. That's what the killer got. And anti-depressant drugs, like those he was given, can themselves intensify suicidal and homicidal thoughts and behavior.
When considering the effectiveness of mental health services, we should recognize that in the 50 years since drugs began to be psychiatry's main treatment modality, there has been a five-fold increase in the fraction of mentally disabled in the population.
Before hurrying to expand mental health services, we should examine more critically the results of treatment methods.
Dr. Nathaniel S. Lehrman
Editor's note: The writer is former clinical director of Kingsboro Psychiatric Center and former assistant clinical professor of psychiatry at Albert Einstein and SUNY Downstate Colleges of Medicine.
Roslyn
www.newsday.com
He then rejected further treatment. The drug-only treatment he got may well have aggravated his disturbance.
Good mental health care is based on continuing, caring human contact: knowledgable people helping troubled people with problems, while strengthening and reassuring them. Medication, often with little or no meaningful human contact, has now almost entirely replaced that older care pattern. That's what the killer got. And anti-depressant drugs, like those he was given, can themselves intensify suicidal and homicidal thoughts and behavior.
When considering the effectiveness of mental health services, we should recognize that in the 50 years since drugs began to be psychiatry's main treatment modality, there has been a five-fold increase in the fraction of mentally disabled in the population.
Before hurrying to expand mental health services, we should examine more critically the results of treatment methods.
Dr. Nathaniel S. Lehrman
Editor's note: The writer is former clinical director of Kingsboro Psychiatric Center and former assistant clinical professor of psychiatry at Albert Einstein and SUNY Downstate Colleges of Medicine.
Roslyn
www.newsday.com
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
More on School Shootings
From Fox National News Reporter, Douglas Kennedy:
From Filmmaker (Remember Bowling For Columbine?) Michael Moore
From Filmmaker (Remember Bowling For Columbine?) Michael Moore
Monday, April 23, 2007
It truly works!
I finally found a concealer that works! This one actually blends in to my skin with out making me look too orange or too pasty. I happen to be a neutral and fair skinned and it really does hide my dark circles.
All of the colors (fair, medium, etc) also come in warm, cool and neutral so they truly blend in to your skin. When it comes time to replace my foundation, blush, etc I will being going back to the true match line, it just looks so natural.
Major plus that it's cheap too!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
The shooter was on anti depressants
I received this email today:
We would like to express our condolences to those that lost family members or friends. What happened in Blacksburg, VA is a loss to humanity.
Several investigators have recently reported that the assailant had been treated for depression with antidepressants. The U.S. Food and Drug Administration Public Health Advisory of March 22, 2004 identified the side effects of SSRI antidepressants, stating, “Anxiety, agitation, panic attacks, insomnia, irritability, hostility, impulsivity, akathisia (severe restlessness), and mania (psychosis), have been reported in adult and pediatric patients being treated with antidepressants.” SSRI antidepressants have documented side effects of suicide, mania, psychosis, aggression and hostility.
It is time for a Congressional investigation into the link associated with psychotropic drugs and school violence. We must all contact our representatives and let them know that this is a national issue and that we demand an investigation into a link that even the FDA admits. It is time to speak out so that the children at Virginia Tech did not die in vain.
Please take a moment and contact your Congressional leaders now! It is time to act. It will only take a moment and may prevent future massacres in our learning institutions. If we keep our schools drug and label free, they will be safer too.
For the safety of our children this must be investigated. He is not the first school shooter who was on anti depressants. In fact, he is the 9th. This is a documented side effect of these drugs, why is nothing being done about it?!? Whether you agree with these drugs or not, the fact of the matter is that these are the side effects and as an absolute minimum it needs to be investigated.
We would like to express our condolences to those that lost family members or friends. What happened in Blacksburg, VA is a loss to humanity.
Several investigators have recently reported that the assailant had been treated for depression with antidepressants. The U.S. Food and Drug Administration Public Health Advisory of March 22, 2004 identified the side effects of SSRI antidepressants, stating, “Anxiety, agitation, panic attacks, insomnia, irritability, hostility, impulsivity, akathisia (severe restlessness), and mania (psychosis), have been reported in adult and pediatric patients being treated with antidepressants.” SSRI antidepressants have documented side effects of suicide, mania, psychosis, aggression and hostility.
It is time for a Congressional investigation into the link associated with psychotropic drugs and school violence. We must all contact our representatives and let them know that this is a national issue and that we demand an investigation into a link that even the FDA admits. It is time to speak out so that the children at Virginia Tech did not die in vain.
Please take a moment and contact your Congressional leaders now! It is time to act. It will only take a moment and may prevent future massacres in our learning institutions. If we keep our schools drug and label free, they will be safer too.
For the safety of our children this must be investigated. He is not the first school shooter who was on anti depressants. In fact, he is the 9th. This is a documented side effect of these drugs, why is nothing being done about it?!? Whether you agree with these drugs or not, the fact of the matter is that these are the side effects and as an absolute minimum it needs to be investigated.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Mommy Style - Blue Jean News
The good news is that "Mom jeans" are out, and have been for a while. The even better news is that the ultra low rise trend that frightened the begezus out of us is also out. Yes, rises are rising! It seems we have pendulum swung so don't be surprised if you see rises so high they put mom jeans to shame. None the less, rises are now at an acceptable range, just bellow the belly button.
My advice to moms who are going to treat themselves to some new jeans (you deserve it, right?) is to follow a few basic rules:
1. Boot cut (not flare) is figure flattering on everyone. They are not a trend and can be your go to jean until they fall apart.
2. The darker the wash the slimmer you look. If you are concerned with bumps and lumps, go dark.
3. Embellishments and spot fading bring attention to the area where the embellishment or fading is located. If you have large thighs (as I do) don't get jeans with fading on the thigh area! If you have a nice arse and want to bring attention to it get jeans with a little extra something on the back pockets.
4. Beware of the muffin top! Your jeans are too low or too tight if you have a ring of flab hanging over the top and resembles the shape of a muffin.
5. Wear appropriate shoes when you shop for jeans. Jeans that are too long look sloppy and jeans that are too short look, well, stupid. :) If you are looking for a nice pair of jeans to wear out at night, bring a pair of heals to try on with them. Keep in mind that sometimes the perfect length is unattainable and be prepared to have them altered. I'm 5'4" and have to have a pair of jeans for heals and a separate pair altered to be short enough for flats.
6. Before you commit to a pair, walk around in them, sit down in them, get down on the floor and crawl in them. OK, I'm exaggerating a little but come on, we all have kids right? Make sure they are comfortable to MOVE in.
7. Keep in mind the time of day you are shopping. We all tend to be a few lbs heavier at the end of the day and during that time of the month. If you are shopping in the morning keep in mind that you will need a little room to expand.
8. Plan to take some time when hunting for the perfect pair of jeans. They don't have to be expensive but nothing feels better than the perfect pair of broken in jeans that flatter. If you are not sure, take a camera to the dressing room so you can take pics of you in them to look at later or to show to friends to get an honest opinion.
My advice to moms who are going to treat themselves to some new jeans (you deserve it, right?) is to follow a few basic rules:
1. Boot cut (not flare) is figure flattering on everyone. They are not a trend and can be your go to jean until they fall apart.
2. The darker the wash the slimmer you look. If you are concerned with bumps and lumps, go dark.
3. Embellishments and spot fading bring attention to the area where the embellishment or fading is located. If you have large thighs (as I do) don't get jeans with fading on the thigh area! If you have a nice arse and want to bring attention to it get jeans with a little extra something on the back pockets.
4. Beware of the muffin top! Your jeans are too low or too tight if you have a ring of flab hanging over the top and resembles the shape of a muffin.
5. Wear appropriate shoes when you shop for jeans. Jeans that are too long look sloppy and jeans that are too short look, well, stupid. :) If you are looking for a nice pair of jeans to wear out at night, bring a pair of heals to try on with them. Keep in mind that sometimes the perfect length is unattainable and be prepared to have them altered. I'm 5'4" and have to have a pair of jeans for heals and a separate pair altered to be short enough for flats.
6. Before you commit to a pair, walk around in them, sit down in them, get down on the floor and crawl in them. OK, I'm exaggerating a little but come on, we all have kids right? Make sure they are comfortable to MOVE in.
7. Keep in mind the time of day you are shopping. We all tend to be a few lbs heavier at the end of the day and during that time of the month. If you are shopping in the morning keep in mind that you will need a little room to expand.
8. Plan to take some time when hunting for the perfect pair of jeans. They don't have to be expensive but nothing feels better than the perfect pair of broken in jeans that flatter. If you are not sure, take a camera to the dressing room so you can take pics of you in them to look at later or to show to friends to get an honest opinion.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm here
I lost my computer when I left so I have not been on line much recently. I decided to use my lunch break to do a little blogging.
Not much to say other than the in-laws know now and as expected I am the evil queen bitch of the universe. My best friend (since we were 14) is also my sister-in-law so she fills me in on it all. Apparently I "broke my mother in law because I took her baby away", I am "tearing the family apart" and I am "the reason STBXH (soon to be x-husband) never calls them."
They give me far too much credit, doncha think? ;)
This is of course, on top of the famous "High Maintenance" line my MIL started. Tell me this... If two people are in a relationship and one of them sits around and refuses to help, expects the other to handle everything and bitches and complains about not getting what they want while the other one does 99% of the work, works their arse off and still manages to keep the other *mostly* satisfied, who would you say is the "High Maintenance" one?
Eat it MIL.
A note to the In-laws: You do NOT want to go to battle with me. Trust me. I will run you in to the ground, you alcoholic SOBs.
Not much to say other than the in-laws know now and as expected I am the evil queen bitch of the universe. My best friend (since we were 14) is also my sister-in-law so she fills me in on it all. Apparently I "broke my mother in law because I took her baby away", I am "tearing the family apart" and I am "the reason STBXH (soon to be x-husband) never calls them."
They give me far too much credit, doncha think? ;)
This is of course, on top of the famous "High Maintenance" line my MIL started. Tell me this... If two people are in a relationship and one of them sits around and refuses to help, expects the other to handle everything and bitches and complains about not getting what they want while the other one does 99% of the work, works their arse off and still manages to keep the other *mostly* satisfied, who would you say is the "High Maintenance" one?
Eat it MIL.
A note to the In-laws: You do NOT want to go to battle with me. Trust me. I will run you in to the ground, you alcoholic SOBs.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
A little Peep action
I most definitely don't have the time to get in on all the Peep action going around but I do think this shirt from David and Goliath is adorable!
Moving day
Most of you have no idea what I am talking about and a few of you are going to jump up from your chairs and shout, "FINALLY!" but...
I'm leaving. Moving back to MY house with my children, filing for divorce and moving on.
(Disclaimer: Of course there is always the chance that STBXH (soon-to-be-Ex-husband) will do a 180 and honestly get his shit together but I am not counting on it or waiting for it and I will not be manipulated with "good behaviour" again.)
It feels good and scary at the same time. I actually kicked STBXH out of our current house a week ago and have been waiting for a couple things to be repaired at my house before I could move. M is having a hard time and keeps asking where Daddy is. K could really care less and is just as cheerful and cute as ever. M and STBXH were not that close, I think mainly he is concerned that I have been a bit of a wreck. M has been sleeping in my bed and 2 nights ago actually slept on me.
So despite the fact that I have been almost solely existing on Ben and Jerry's and Blizzards, I am doing quite well. As I suspected, living without my pain-in-the-ass husband around is actually easier and less work. (Do you all get it now? Being a single mom of 2 children under 3 is easier than being with my husband! Do you get how much of a childish ass he was/is?) Being a single mom shouldn't be easier. Yet it is, except for being the only one to get up in the night with the kids. Although this should settle down soon and they will once again return to being good sleepers.
I'm leaving. Moving back to MY house with my children, filing for divorce and moving on.
(Disclaimer: Of course there is always the chance that STBXH (soon-to-be-Ex-husband) will do a 180 and honestly get his shit together but I am not counting on it or waiting for it and I will not be manipulated with "good behaviour" again.)
It feels good and scary at the same time. I actually kicked STBXH out of our current house a week ago and have been waiting for a couple things to be repaired at my house before I could move. M is having a hard time and keeps asking where Daddy is. K could really care less and is just as cheerful and cute as ever. M and STBXH were not that close, I think mainly he is concerned that I have been a bit of a wreck. M has been sleeping in my bed and 2 nights ago actually slept on me.
So despite the fact that I have been almost solely existing on Ben and Jerry's and Blizzards, I am doing quite well. As I suspected, living without my pain-in-the-ass husband around is actually easier and less work. (Do you all get it now? Being a single mom of 2 children under 3 is easier than being with my husband! Do you get how much of a childish ass he was/is?) Being a single mom shouldn't be easier. Yet it is, except for being the only one to get up in the night with the kids. Although this should settle down soon and they will once again return to being good sleepers.
So there it is. Like I said, it feels good but scary. The hardest part is being alone again, no one to talk to and share things with. No one to say good morning and good night to, or "what should we do for dinner?" Not that I want him around again but it would sure be nice to finally find someone who can really be my partner in life...
Until then I'm going to enjoy the freedom of being single. No one to harass me about sex, or hump me from behind while I'm unloading the dishwasher. One person less laundry and one person less to argue with. Today is a good day. :)Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Beauty Product Recommendation
Not cheap but if you are in need of some pampering this stuff is fantastic! I got some for Christmas from my SIL and I swear my skin never looks or feels as good as it does when I'm done using this stuff. My MIL says the same thing and it gets fantastic reviews on a fashion board I post on. No obnoxious perfumes to deal with either, a major plus in my book.
Seriously, try it! It's fantastic!
New blog on the blog roll
These are truly amazing stories!! Probably more appropriate to call some of them miracles.
Dianetics Blog
Dianetics Blog
Life imitates Art...
2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe
May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.
Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe
There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
'Cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turnin' around.
2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
'Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to.
But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
Wo oh breathe, just breathe,
oh oh breathe, just breathe
oh breathe, just breathe
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Quite possibly the best invention ever
Seriously, check it out!
http://www.bugcatcherz.com/noSeeEms.aspx
If anyone has tried these, let me know. I think I'm going to order some.
http://www.bugcatcherz.com/noSeeEms.aspx
If anyone has tried these, let me know. I think I'm going to order some.
Friday, March 09, 2007
Mommy Style
Recently I've been on a venture to learn all (or most) things fashionable. One thing I have learned is that what is acceptable to a "fashionista" is not always practical for a mom. I've spent some time translating what's cute and fashionably in to what cute, fashionable and PRACTICAL for a mother. I've decided to pass my infinite wisdom (yeah right) on to you. Aren’t you lucky? ;)
I'll start with a Stylish Mommy Must Have...
The wrap dress!
The wrap dress, in my humble opinion, is a must for any woman. Jiggle belly, wide hips and gigantic thighs are no match for the wrap dress. It hides it all and because of the position of the wrap, it defines the waist.
A wrap dress can be dressed up for a date night with some chunky jewlery and cute pumps, dressed down for weekend running around with comfy flats or worn work ready with kitten heels.
Here are some examples:
Diane Von Furstenberg "Jessica" Wrap Dress $245
Diane Von Furstenberg "Bellette" Wrap Dress $465
No fear Stylish Mommies on a budget. There are affordable wrap dresses too!
Ann Taylor Loft $69
Old Navy Wrap Dress $29.50
Target has TONS of great wrap dresses. (Seriously, TONS. Check them out, they are super cute.) Here are a couple:
Target Asian Floral Wrap Dress $24.99
The wrap dress is also the perfect for pregnancy and post partum.
Liz Lange for Target Wrap Dress $21.59
If you are on a budget but head over heals in love with the DVF dresses (who wouldn't be?) you can always check Ebay. Just beware of frauds! The DVF dress is the mother of all dresses, I promise you if you splurge on a DVF you will not regret it. (Unless, of course, your toddler spills cranberry juice on it, but that's another story!)
I'll start with a Stylish Mommy Must Have...
The wrap dress!
The wrap dress, in my humble opinion, is a must for any woman. Jiggle belly, wide hips and gigantic thighs are no match for the wrap dress. It hides it all and because of the position of the wrap, it defines the waist.
A wrap dress can be dressed up for a date night with some chunky jewlery and cute pumps, dressed down for weekend running around with comfy flats or worn work ready with kitten heels.
Here are some examples:
Diane Von Furstenberg "Jessica" Wrap Dress $245
Diane Von Furstenberg "Bellette" Wrap Dress $465
No fear Stylish Mommies on a budget. There are affordable wrap dresses too!
Ann Taylor Loft $69
Old Navy Wrap Dress $29.50
Target has TONS of great wrap dresses. (Seriously, TONS. Check them out, they are super cute.) Here are a couple:
Target Asian Floral Wrap Dress $24.99
The wrap dress is also the perfect for pregnancy and post partum.
Liz Lange for Target Wrap Dress $21.59
If you are on a budget but head over heals in love with the DVF dresses (who wouldn't be?) you can always check Ebay. Just beware of frauds! The DVF dress is the mother of all dresses, I promise you if you splurge on a DVF you will not regret it. (Unless, of course, your toddler spills cranberry juice on it, but that's another story!)
Someone throw me under the Monorail
Can you guess where I'm going this weekend?
I know I said I hated this place. I know I said I'd rather lay down in the driveway while my husband backs over me with our car....
The thing is I KNOW my kids will have a blast. I know they will have more fun than they can stand, especially since K is walking/running now. I also know I'll want to kill myself come the end of the day but alas I am a mom and we moms tend to put our kids needs/wants before ours.
I'm going to have to go sometime this year. Better now than this summer when the heat will melt my pale, white ass.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
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